Too little to give? Too late to change?

Every time I hear people say "There is nothing we can do", I feel a strongly repulsive force of disgust growing upward my stomach and blood fiercely running through my veins to my fists. Uninspiring like hell, I don't like the wisdom of "giving it all up and letting go without a fight". Maybe it's just me, maybe it's my personality, my destiny, my arrogance, my ego, my flaw, my whatever, but I don't like my life to be just a dashline on the dots of time. I want to fight, for something greater than myself, and find something beautiful and worthy enough for me to defend with all my heart.

While the world spins around me, I can only count on myself now. Despite my free spirit and open mind, I have carried on a rather lonely life. Cuts on my heart bleed evermore each day, while I try to stand firm and hold up a little piece of sky not just for me but for the people behind me. The pains are becoming harder for me to handle but, my stubborn heart will not let go. My love ones would never know what I went through in this life because I don't believe spreading the shreds of sadness will make the world a better place. I only want them to be healthy and happy.

Idealist, perfectionist, I'm going solo as time passes me by. Meanwhile, some people have to make sure that I understand how they "don't have a lot to give for others" and they "can't be like you because I have to be selfish to survive". It is just ... such a shameless and awful sight of life.

Honestly I don't really want to know, nor do I care much about the reason why people must make the world a little colder. At this point in time, we are the new generation of this world, and I believe that we were not born to conform with the old world order but to break free and create something new, exciting and hopefully lastingly beauitful. Just like a tiny tip of grass breaking through the rocky ground when spring comes, none of us should let go of youth and just watch it wither away in the air and slip through our own hands. If we happen to fail, then we fail, but we stay intrepid, we carry on.

We can be vulnerable, inexperienced, broken, hurt, or whatever, but with Time on our side, there is nothing to be afraid of, not even the very hand of Destiny.